No boundaries - Adam Lambert

For the past few months, my life has been filled up with wonderful moments. Living with these, i seemed to forget all else in life. That was one of the reason why this blog has been dead for so long. Its death was the start of my fancy dream. Yet i have no regret because during this time i truly realise, understand and decide to strive for what i deem most precious in life: family, love, friendship and wealth.

Anything happened, family would come first. When you call home, ask how everything has been and most of the times, the replies were "you should focus on studying and care less, it s our problems", would you questions the priority of family? When suddenly a night your mummy called you and said "we love you and miss you a lot", words hardly described the happiness. Nevertheless, i was left confused and helpless. Things has been different after years but one thing doesn't change is love. Being this far from home, thinking of them and loving them are all i can do. I can't care less.

Love, friendship and wealth did not bother me as much and i could not bother that much. I am happy with what i am having but people around me have taught me certain things which i can sum up in just a few quotes: "Love doesn't walk away, people do", "Don't ask your best friend to be there when you need them because he/she has already been there", "Nothing in this world that's worth having, comes easy".

Is this enough for the first post? I guess so ... I will be posting something else, hopefully soon :)

What goes around comes around - Justin Timberlake

I think i ought to record this down because yesterday was the day that i almost died because of everything.
I woke up a bit early in the morning and was very happy because training is at 9 and the moment is just 7. I had a good breakfast but after that i realized i was experienced a light sore-throat. No big deal, i drank some hot milk and take for granted that it will be cured by itself. I went for training and again was very happy because i can again see the same familiar faces of my friends. Everyone still looks the same though. Training was fun because of dancing by itself, celebrating Charm's birthday ... , except for the fact that my flexibility disappears after one month of no practice. Damn it, but that was not the only fun part. My sore-throat got worse and i could hardly utter a word but stubbornly, i still thought that was no big deal.
But again damn, no, i went off for PW and really felt the sore in my throat. So i took a nap on the bus and ended up alighting one stop before (cos i am not sure which stop to take). Being conscious about 45c, i decided to walk and on the way plugged in my earphone. So i walked on this small road where two sides are parked by car and the middle of the road is just enough for one car to pass through. So smart, i walked in the middle of the road. The smarter thing is that i did not realized there was a car behind me. When i looked back, i think the drive was sounding the horn but sorry, i could not hear it with my earphone plugged in. It seems like he did it for quite a while cos i saw his pissed face when he passed me. But nevermind, i managed to get to my friend's house.
I worked through the OP and written report for the whole afternoon and felt damn bored because of the work itself and because i was tortured by the sore throat getting worse. Luckily, there were good moment when Tracy's mom bought us pizza and when Kaushik who happens to be a vegetarian cannot eat his part so i took it.
After that, i went home. This moment i felt damn tired and empty-minded. I was not of any conscious about my actions. Have i mentioned that after i edited the written report, i did not save it? 0_0 The only think i can think of at that moment is to take 156, alight, and straight back to hostel. "buying noodles" plan is canceled, i did not want to stop anywhere. But everything did not end there.
The moment i crossed the road, i did not pay attention to cars and as a result, i was almost hit by a car. I still remembered the driver said:"Fuck, watch where you are going". Ok, damn that was my fault.
Getting home was a miracle. Facebook for a while, at the same time eating something. Then i went to sleep damn early (like 11 or so) but woke up at 3 because of reasons i dont know. I managed to sleep again at 4 and got up at 8 and continued with my life. The sore-throat has gotten better!

Hey there Delilah - Plain White T's

So it has been near a month that i have not updated my blog. I have been too busy with Promos and tried to spend as less time on line as possible. So let's see what i got to say. Uhm uhm nothing actually.
Life in preparation for Promos is just way boring. So let's not talk about it. Nevertheless, to summary, here we go. There was not any dance sessions so all I felt was more fat growing in m tummy! Damn, got to train harder when training restart. Everyday will start with waking up and going to school (someday i could not wake up so the day will start with "could not wake up so pon school"), after that there were lessons followed by lessons, and not including walking home and dinner, i enjoyed myself self-studying (don't lie la u :) There were certain brighten-up moment when i accepted to feel guilty and went over (or call him (TK) over) to watch movie. I went to sleep pretty early (12h30 on average) and obidiently.
So life after Promos has just started for like 3 days. I rewarded myself a day-off which completely filled with sleeping, movies and going out. And yeah, after Physics paper, we celebrated 3 years we have been in Singapore. It was a good dinner and the chicken was like damn nice. I wondered why other guys did not want it as badly as me (cos i ate alot, sorry :()
Thanks to Lunar for taking us to the ULU, yet AWESOME restaurant ( i am sure the uncle is the happiest guy that day hahaha)
Wait, actually it was not 1 day-off. I actually rewarded myself one-week off (starting from this moment)
But watching a lot of movies is getting pretty boring as well. But i dun know what else to do, currently i am in love with a lot of song:
- Hey there Delilah
- Obviously
- No surprise
- What about now
- What goes around comes around (or the other way round)
.... who want to play and sing? :)

Cheyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, now got PW workshop. SADDDDDDD :(

Holiday - Green Day

I guess i took a day-off today though yesterday i thought that today would be the official day i need to start studying. This morning i came to Maths with a headache and muscle ache and the lesson did not turn out as i expected. I wanted to attend cos they said they were gonna teach "Transformation of Graphs" but eventually the teacher did not go through it. Wasted almost 2 hours there.
Currently i am in no mood to joke around anymore, even with those who are really close to me. I do not know the reason. I just do not feel like doing it. Watching movies seems to help but in fact, i was cheered up for a moment then i felt down again. If there s a chance, "ice age 3" and "the hangover" is highly recommended. (Disclaimer: The hangover is over 18)

Currently i heard a lot about couples thingy and how all of them eventually broke up. Then i heard people discussing their opinions about this. Different but yet very interesting point of view. I shall restate some of the points here. Basically it s inevitable for you to come to a certain age and then, have a feeling for someone. Then, some says it s better you tell her la if not, she may like someone else. Some know breaking up happen after you feel that continuing this is burdening your life and you cant lie to yourself anymore.
I don't know la but after a while, i really feel like a little buzzing in my ears. To me, currently i understand that i am still too young and not mature enough to handle a proper relationship. I sometimes have feelings for this one, feelings for others, then no more and i said to myself luckily i did not disclose it to her. I cant be forced to like anyone or force myself to like anyone. At the moment, some good friends would be much better wouldn't it? Why do you want to get yourself in something you were not ready for?
It s promotional exam that you need to crank up. Oh and thanks to all my friends who lend me their GP essays. U all are really best friends. Thx a lot!

Feels like tonight - Chris Daughtry

Lol today is supposed to be the first day of the holiday but somehow this holiday is gonna be really short and i expect there wont be any movies watching until your eyes drop on the table without you knowing it, downloading until your com crash in an effort to load as many pages as possible, sleeping late until the moment you say good morning, but actually good afternoon should be used instead.
Why ah? Simple la, same reasons, what others can i offer you? I just want to talk about this cos i am feeling something different, or truthfully a mixed feeling.
- Promotional Examination or in Short, Promo -.- (everything is tested, wt*)
- Project Work or in Short, PW, in particular, pilot test -.- -.- (who gonna fly, dont ask la)
- Other stuffs (blah blah blah)
They are actually very fun activities i must say. For example, while studying for promo, you will sometimes smile by yourself while focusing intensively on the notes. From others' point of view, you look like you are enjoying that piece of paper but propbably you are going insane. PW is quite an exciting event cos you are gonna go buy gardening tools, seeds and SHIT and gonna touch them somemore. My group mate made a call today to ask for how much compost can be provided to us, and the reply is 7 to 8 TONNES. Wahlau eh, i did not know fertilisers are so cheap!
The "not funny" about all these are their high potentiality of being screwed up. What if i indeed failed to study for Promo? What if the pilot test ended up with the death of the pilot?
Uhm, perhaps it s God will but i know even the highest god wont decide the fate of man by his own will, he will listen to what we want first.
I believe i can do it so i can do it (cant remember who said this) so let's go and study like now :)

Believe in Miracle, Man!

I dont wanna miss a thing

Sometimes you just feel guilty because you are not studying while you are supposed to study. No, putting it in a right way, it is because your friends are studying and you are not. Who cares? Actually i do care a lot about how i study but for god sake, it is a beautiful Saturday evening when i just came back from a day of training and PW and you know there are still 3 day-offs from school.
The past week has not been so bad or shall i say this week God has been kind to me? There were moments of happiness and laughter. I did not have anything to worry about or rather i did not bother to worry about anything.

:)) Mind-blocking now, i don't know what to write
BB

HaLO - Beyonce

Just want to write a few lines before going to sleep. Though today is a Friday night, still i need to go to sleep early because of trainings tomorrow and half of the dance is not done yet and i will need the power of concentration. Moreover, i will need to meet up and do PW in the afternoon. Maybe tomorrow i will stay up late.
On a totally unrelated note, i think emotion can not be expressed in words. You can talk to your friends, talk to someone you trust and even talk to yourself so that to release yourself from all emotions. They can either be happy or be unhappy. Oh, and to being really random, i shall quote this "work begins when you don't like what you are doing". It is partially true because at the moment i don't feel like studying now, but in fact i have tonnes of tutorials and readings waiting for me. No worry, i shall start working really really soon. Promo is coming and i want me to work harder (though whether i will actually work harder is another story to tell :)
My mother's brother is getting married next month (as in in two weeks time la) and i am really glad that he is getting married because sometimes i feel like i am gonna get married before him. My grandpa and grandma is expectantly waiting for some more children and so am I. There is a joke in my house that "You give birth to as many children as you can, if you cant raise them, i will (My Grandma)". Haha i think if it was her of 40 years ago, she can. My grandma loves her grand kids pretty much. LOL i am missing home.
Ok sleeping now!
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