When you say nothing at all - Ronan Keating

Since the start of this year, i thought study will be my main focus for this year. Unlike IP1 and IP2, JC1 was warned to be much tougher. However, things have changed and changed a lot.
The start of JC1 reminds me of the start of IP1, the first year when i came to Singapore (when i was 16 years old). I chose to come to Singapore to study, part of the reason was a better educational quality but besides was a chance to escape from the sad memories. I thought i would start a new life here. But my life seems to be repeating itself. Three years ago, i had to give up on something just because the physical distance and time didn't allow us anymore. And each of us chose to go on our own way and only hope that by a slim chance will we see each other again in a far future. As i recalled, things went chaotic for me. I started my high school life without paying attention to anything, but living in memories echoing from the past. The first year of high school was gone and i didn't know that it had ended. Over the summer, i realized i need a new start and fortunately enough, the door to Singapore was open to me.
I came here promising to myself that those wont happen anymore. I determined that i will live without dreaming of the past too much. As time went on, those had faded. I thought i will live on like this for the next 2 years but no, things changed. That happened again and this time round, it was really fast. Everything happened so fast that i couldn't know anything. I spent time recalling, thinking and reasoning. In the end, that was so unthoughtful of me.
From this experience, i have learn so much. About life, love and friendship. Sometimes you wont be able to distinguish these three but in the end you have to. Perhaps goggling wouldn't give you the answer.
Personally today i know that when i left everything behind with a bitter smile, i know the difference. Though my smile can be bitter, it s a smile eventually because it s happiness to both.