Love comes over you

It seems so true that when we have nothing to do, we either try to find things to do or try to think of what we have done before. Last week was very relaxing apparently because i was not involved in anything. Life was so simple with coming to school, attending lectures, spending time in library to wait for someone, and coming back to hostel early.
It is so obvious that the momentum that pushed me during SYF time has gone. I ought to find a new momentum soon.
Nevertheless sometimes in life if you have a chance to relax, just do it because for me, these days help me gain back something which have seemingly been lost.
My high school friends have been contacting me all the time this week and almost every night i spent time talking to them. As a group, we revised the old memories of the old school, old teachers, old roads where we walked to school. Interestingly, my class decided to gather during this December and of course i will go back :) At the same time, it s so glad to know that all of them who stay are admitted into uni (so proud :))
Oh yeah yesterday i was reading "Genghis Khan and His Conquering Journey" and "Anh Hung Dong A (basically Vietnamese history). I was so proud of my ancestors who defeated an empire that spread over Asia and Europe at that time.

i am not free thinker anymore

I know it is always hard to run away from anything that has already been arranged for you or simply you were born to inherit it. Family tradition, religion ...
It has been a long time that i enjoy being a free thinker. Buddhism is what my family has followed for many generations and it s so hard to communicate to mom, dad, grandma now if i don't accept it as what i should have been. Though i really didn't think of it, i am not against it either. Perhaps time has come and choosing to believe in is better choice.
Well i will try to practice. I only feel sad because in the end, i didn't make the choice i want for myself.