Nothing gonna change my love for you - Instrumental version

This post is on a Saturday evening, sky filled with no star but somehow the wind is so cool. I am sitting in a place where perhaps no one is able to see me.
Next week is SYF and this makes me so excited now. I don't know how to describe my feelings now, however still i want to write something about it. It was this time 2 years ago when we first aimed for SYF. Sitting here, trying to recall past memory, i suddenly realize how much we had wanted our effort to be paid off. And i think the same feeling are happening now in my head. We have trained so hard (remember how decisive we were last year when talking about SYF, remember how tiring all the trainings were ...). All that effort we put in in the end will price itself. To me, it never matters that we have to get Gold With Honours, but it does matter that we have to get what we deserve to get and appreciate what we have gone through together. Two years ago, though we didnt get Gold With Honours, we got praises and compliments from teachers, friends and all others for what we are (NJC Malaydance). Two years ago, just after the dance, i felt so happy because after we left the stage, there were clappings and cheerings and i knew i have done my best. This year still i felt the same. 4 more days and again i promise i will rock the stage again though currently life has not been easy to me.
Life is hard when you try to do something you dont want to but your inside you push you to do it because if you dont, you would make others'life harder. And that is what no one wants, especially when you really feel thankful to that person and want her to be happy.
Everynight he thinks how to get rid and before going to sleep, his mind is filled with determination but the next morning when he wakes up, instead of determination to get rid, it is the want to do something to make someone happy.
Recently i am becoming very easily irritated. I also dont know why. I am trying my best so that it wont burst out in words and actions. It was inevitable that i have showed some bad attitudes and i am very sorry about that if you felt irritated by it.
I just realize how itchy the game "shoot, sex and marry" is. This is just my own personal feeling in times of instability. If i had to choose, i will choose but then i will never carry it out, instead i 'd rather kill myself after my choice. I felt that it is so hurtful to the person you really love. Hmm ...
Ok enough! Stop this!

Mary Jane - The Click Five

This is my first post which is not written after 12 pm. I am writing it at 2:30 pm in the afternoon. Why? Because today there is no PW and there is nothing in school that could hold me back so i came back early.
No PW so today is considered a slack day for me, but somehow i think this whole week of me is slack. I planed to study so many things but in the end, only 1 can be done, and done improperly. Ha ha this was my aims at the start of the week:
- Function tutorial / Circular Motion tutorial / Gases and Chem Bonding tutorial / Elasticity + Tax
But in the end,
- Function tutorial (cancelled)
- Circular Motion (i did 3 questions, lucky that day i stayed in the canteen before training and did it)
- Gases .... (ok, nvm, after SYF lol...)
- Econ... (uhm, reading it on the bed, music playing, 10 min later, slept :))
Result is ok (no failure), except for GP (lucky i passed) :)) Yayay...
SYF is coming and i am so devoted to it. Just a few more days... Press on and i always believe that we can make it.
Yesterday i went cycling after 1 week without doing it. It felt so good though after that i got muscle ache Lol perhaps i must stop it for another week so i can ensure i would enter SYF with fine muscles.
Everything is trying to get itself back to normal or at least i am trying to get myself back to normal but i think it s still a long way to go. Haha my hair is growing longer. This morning i woke up and i can see my front hair again.

Master of the Puppets - Metallica

It has been 5 days, hasn't it? I haven't posted anything for the last 5 days. Haha maybe my emotion is going down and i am in no mood to write anything.
Actually i am quite high nowadays. Instead of pop and classical songs, i am returning to metal and rocks, my soul mate perhaps. Today i have just watched Metallica shows, wao, i love it "Master of the puppets".
Then, i was thinking. Are we all puppets in this world? Have you ever wondered if you are being controlled by some mighty power? "Master of the puppet 's pulling your strings","Obey your master" haha in some sense, it s so true to me. Am i leading myself to somewhere or am i being pulled to somewhere, MASTER?
Most of the lesson i had are a waste of time i guess. For example, today 2 maths lessons with no teacher, one physics lessons with absent teacher (lucky got assistant teacher instead), pw = talking cock (though some ideas are really cool). Have you ever thought of EMERGENCY = WORLD WAR 3? Haha i don even know how i come up with that idea, talking cock sometimes is quite effective in brainstorming.
Coming out of my damn life, there are still something good i can look forward to. I can wait, and i will wait, no matter what i will wait. Who knows what i am waiting for? Even i dont know, life is so unpredictable. The moment you think you are holding your fate, your world turns up side down. The MASTER wont let you control. He is the "ruler".
This is random but i am downloading "Twilight" and i am watching it.