Nothing gonna change my love for you - Instrumental version

This post is on a Saturday evening, sky filled with no star but somehow the wind is so cool. I am sitting in a place where perhaps no one is able to see me.
Next week is SYF and this makes me so excited now. I don't know how to describe my feelings now, however still i want to write something about it. It was this time 2 years ago when we first aimed for SYF. Sitting here, trying to recall past memory, i suddenly realize how much we had wanted our effort to be paid off. And i think the same feeling are happening now in my head. We have trained so hard (remember how decisive we were last year when talking about SYF, remember how tiring all the trainings were ...). All that effort we put in in the end will price itself. To me, it never matters that we have to get Gold With Honours, but it does matter that we have to get what we deserve to get and appreciate what we have gone through together. Two years ago, though we didnt get Gold With Honours, we got praises and compliments from teachers, friends and all others for what we are (NJC Malaydance). Two years ago, just after the dance, i felt so happy because after we left the stage, there were clappings and cheerings and i knew i have done my best. This year still i felt the same. 4 more days and again i promise i will rock the stage again though currently life has not been easy to me.
Life is hard when you try to do something you dont want to but your inside you push you to do it because if you dont, you would make others'life harder. And that is what no one wants, especially when you really feel thankful to that person and want her to be happy.
Everynight he thinks how to get rid and before going to sleep, his mind is filled with determination but the next morning when he wakes up, instead of determination to get rid, it is the want to do something to make someone happy.
Recently i am becoming very easily irritated. I also dont know why. I am trying my best so that it wont burst out in words and actions. It was inevitable that i have showed some bad attitudes and i am very sorry about that if you felt irritated by it.
I just realize how itchy the game "shoot, sex and marry" is. This is just my own personal feeling in times of instability. If i had to choose, i will choose but then i will never carry it out, instead i 'd rather kill myself after my choice. I felt that it is so hurtful to the person you really love. Hmm ...
Ok enough! Stop this!